Remember when we where fit? Remember when we used to run half marathons and teach spin classes? Remember how great it felt to take the stairs everyday and when we picked workouts called “Death by Burpee” and we did not in fact die? Unlike what would most likely happen today if we did this workout.
I remember when my identity was how fit I was, I was proud when people commented on my fitness level and recognized my ambition. I could choose any workout I wanted and not be intimidated by its intensity level because I was confident in my fitness ability.
Today, I’m not that girl any more but I still feel her inside, I know she’s in there wanting to come out but my new identity the one who calls me mom is keeping her inside. Why?
Because I’ve had 2 babies and I’m busy and I’m tiredddd so tiredddd. I can no longer spend 2 hours exercising at my leisure, little people need me.
Because when I walk up hill now I’m usually pushing a stroller and it’s so much harder.
Because at 7 months post partum my body is different and my belly is softer, so much softer and It feels strange when I exercise.
Because “starting slow” is never something I’ve had to do and I’m not sure how to do it.
See when it comes to exercise I’m an all or nothing person, if I can’t run 5k I don’t want to run at all. If I can’t finish my 45min workout I don’t want to start it at all. That mind-set needs to change because my life has changed and if all I can squeeze in is a walk and a 10min interval workout at the playground well that’s gonna have to do and more importantly I need to be ok with it.
I used to be “fit girl” now I’m “mom” how do I become both? Mom`s do it all the time but how do I do it? Maybe I will reach my pre baby fitness level and maybe I won’t but I will achieve is being a fit healthy mom because I just don’t feel like myself when I don’t move my body. I want to be an example to my girls and teach them how important health and fitness is. I’m currently finding MY NEW happy fitness level, maybe that’s walking daily instead of running, or yoga instead of spin class. I’m not sure yet but when I find it, I’ll let you know.